I often wonder about the people around me , their natures, behaviors and thought.I for one am mostly in disagreement with the general world in and around me. It might be because I am in constant conflict and turmoil internally.
I dont like to be hero worshipped and I dont worship any other individual in that way.So when I say that i dont like this particular individual suddenly the people around me, my very own friends and relatives , they change their previously amiable attitude and become hostile to me. The very example of this is perhaps my views of Harry Potter. For me its a good film , a very nice fantasy story but its not something I believe in. The very fact of this is because magic like that doesn't exist. When I say this in front of my Harry Potter and Daniel Radcliff crazed friends they look upon me as if I am the real world incarnation of the Dark Lord himself!.....People should be allowed to have differing views. My views are based on the fact which I have stated and we can debate upon our views.I cannot understand that as soon as I say I dont worship Harry Potter why do people's attitude towards me changes. This situation repeats itself when i say that i dont like a particular dude with whom my other friends have begun to have a very good rapport...I however do not say that my views are always correct and always right. I have had to go back on them several times. Whenever I have gone back on them people have generally laughed at me. Its I guess another nature of people which I dont understand. I personally cannot derive laughter until a situation is very funny. Maybe I take stuffs a bit too seriously...
Another thing I cannot understand is sharing. I have a friend who uses my stuffs as if they were his own and when i ask some of his, its like I have asked his hand in marriage. Although he gives me them but its like 1 minute later he's gotta have them back. Another aspect is this that my stuffs in other people's hands equates to their own stuffs in their own hands. They can do anything with it. Now my question is "WHY?"....I have emotions attached with my stuffs. I like the top plastic cover to be still glued with the top, I like the silica gel pouch which I got with the laptop and hence if you lose them I will frown. I like my pens because I have emotions associated with them ( The pens were the same ones with which I had given the previous exam or written my last letter etc ) and hence when you lose them feel bad. Stupid consoling words or your offer to buy me a new one or the practical logic that it had become very old and cracked dont work with me
My friends feel that I ask a lot of questions in class. My question is "what is your problem?". I have doubts i will ask questions, if you have them you do it as well. Why do you frown upon me and call me a nerd? People are very judgemental. I guess I also make judgements though I am learning not to by viewing the daily Brahma Kumari discourses on life.
I guess this cold morning I have written a lot about me. The last post also contained my views. This blog , i had intended to dedicate only for story telling. I guess I am deviating. So I hope to write more of the oddly timed stories which come to my mind and less of myself here. SORRY FOLKS!!
I dont like to be hero worshipped and I dont worship any other individual in that way.So when I say that i dont like this particular individual suddenly the people around me, my very own friends and relatives , they change their previously amiable attitude and become hostile to me. The very example of this is perhaps my views of Harry Potter. For me its a good film , a very nice fantasy story but its not something I believe in. The very fact of this is because magic like that doesn't exist. When I say this in front of my Harry Potter and Daniel Radcliff crazed friends they look upon me as if I am the real world incarnation of the Dark Lord himself!.....People should be allowed to have differing views. My views are based on the fact which I have stated and we can debate upon our views.I cannot understand that as soon as I say I dont worship Harry Potter why do people's attitude towards me changes. This situation repeats itself when i say that i dont like a particular dude with whom my other friends have begun to have a very good rapport...I however do not say that my views are always correct and always right. I have had to go back on them several times. Whenever I have gone back on them people have generally laughed at me. Its I guess another nature of people which I dont understand. I personally cannot derive laughter until a situation is very funny. Maybe I take stuffs a bit too seriously...
Another thing I cannot understand is sharing. I have a friend who uses my stuffs as if they were his own and when i ask some of his, its like I have asked his hand in marriage. Although he gives me them but its like 1 minute later he's gotta have them back. Another aspect is this that my stuffs in other people's hands equates to their own stuffs in their own hands. They can do anything with it. Now my question is "WHY?"....I have emotions attached with my stuffs. I like the top plastic cover to be still glued with the top, I like the silica gel pouch which I got with the laptop and hence if you lose them I will frown. I like my pens because I have emotions associated with them ( The pens were the same ones with which I had given the previous exam or written my last letter etc ) and hence when you lose them feel bad. Stupid consoling words or your offer to buy me a new one or the practical logic that it had become very old and cracked dont work with me
My friends feel that I ask a lot of questions in class. My question is "what is your problem?". I have doubts i will ask questions, if you have them you do it as well. Why do you frown upon me and call me a nerd? People are very judgemental. I guess I also make judgements though I am learning not to by viewing the daily Brahma Kumari discourses on life.
I guess this cold morning I have written a lot about me. The last post also contained my views. This blog , i had intended to dedicate only for story telling. I guess I am deviating. So I hope to write more of the oddly timed stories which come to my mind and less of myself here. SORRY FOLKS!!
Story of many. I feel there is nothing better than being yourself.
ReplyDeleteI liked the way you expressed yourself so honestly.
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